Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Well Alright Then!

So the other night Hubby and I had a spontaneous date night on our couch (the way to do it- no make-up and wearing pjs!) with the 20 questions here (found this on Pinterest, believe it or not!). I thought we would do it just to kill some time before Downton Abbey came on (priorities!), but our quick little something-to-do turned into a three hour sesh about some pretty serious stuff as well as some hilarious and funny stuff.

The big thing that came out of it was how angry I'd been with God. Yep, I admit it. Tough to say, but the reality is I was mad at God (the root of several issues I'd been struggling with) because the situation I was in wasn't where I wanted to be.

Isn't that how it goes? Life doesn't happen the way you want in a single moment and without even realizing it, the devil's got this major foothold in your life, which then affects everything! It affects your attitudes, your relationships, your actions, every decision you make-- all without even seeing what's going on.

Well, praise the Lord, I confessed my anger and sin and dealt with it, and I've felt better this week. But it doesn't mean I won't sin again and that I'm overly thrilled with my timing not being God's timing. But it does mean I now realize where I'm at and can pray in the right direction.

Here are a couple verses I've been thinking about relating to this situation I've been dealing with this week, just food for thought.

Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don't use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don't stay angry. Don't go to bed angry. Don't give the Devil that kind of foothold in your life. ~Ephesians 4:26-27, The Message

Do I use my "anger as fuel for revenge?" Ouch. "Staying angry?" Double ouch.

God, slow to get angry and huge in loyal love,
forgiving iniquity and rebellion and sin;
Still, never just whitewashing sin.
But extending the fallout of parents' sins
to children into the third,
even the fourth generation.
~Numbers 14:18, The Message

I love this one especially, though I've spent more time thinking about the other one, just because it's more familiar to me. I love the translation here- that God doesn't whitewash my sin, yet still loves me oh so much. "Forgiving rebellion..." Powerful words there. Because anger itself may not be sinful, but I have for sure been rebellious against my Lord, and I don't mean in a fun, okay way.

I have to accept His timing for my life, no matter what. And His timing is always perfect, so why do I fight it so much? Sigh...


{cuppakim} said...

yes! i totally know.
i so know.
i am right there with you.

working on a few things in 2012 myself.
starting with remaining faithful to HIM, to HIS plan, and HIS timing.

it's rough.
but i know God's best is what i truly want. :)

Jan said...

Wow! What a great post! I can certainly identify with how you've been feeling. There have been multiple times where I've been angry with God and His timing. I love your hubby, your relationship with him, and how he listens. I'm so glad you both had a "date night" on the couch the other night and you were able to confess your anger and work through it. It's in those times that we draw closer to God and isn't that always what He wants. :)

Jessica Johnson said...

and who says pinterest is a useless, time suck?? obvs not for you! love and appreciate your honesty. we've all been there before, right? i'm glad He's working in your life. i bet if He had an account, He'd pin this post. wait. was that blasphemous? anyway, you get me.

thanks for linking up!


Laurie J said...

sounds like a great date night.....go pinterest! verses from the message are so awesome