I am overweight. I have been since I ballooned in college and I regret this pretty often. I knew what to do but, just like getting into debt, I chose the lazy, slacker way out. The problem with doing this is it's not a way out, I was just digging a deeper hole.
|Happy because of who I'm with, but not happy with myself|
Well about this time after Atkins last year, I took a break from it all. I couldn't deal with the feelings of failure and the constant grossness I felt. I wasn't happy with myself, which created more issues for me.
Okay, so last summer, my inspiring friend, Meredith, and another no-blog inspiring friend, Raquel, introduced me to MFP. I signed up for it and tried it for a few days and was like, ugh. Who wants to do this?! But around the 4th of July, I ended up reading Candace Cameron Bure's book, which totally changed everything for me (I strongly recommend this book, by the way.). By I think page eight, I realized that food had replaced God on the throne of my heart.
You see, I took pride in the fact that I'm a big foodie. Who ever thought a poor girl from the projects would be so blessed (hear that? foolish Susie.) to be where she lives, with the amazing husband she has, working for the awesome church she does, getting gourmet food magazines, watching food shows on cable, and being able to afford to make these amazing things?! (Turned out to be a huge sin issue.) Once I realized that, of course, I could do nothing but confess and get right about it. Around this time, Hubby decided he was ready to join me on this journey and I restarted using MFP for real.
|Our first 5k together; Hubby's first 5k ever!|
I still have hard moments, lots of them. I do love to bake, after all! But overall, MFP has been the best thing for me. I understand this may not be the best method for everyone, but I for one have found it to be what works. I do not feel deprived- in fact, I feel like I get more treats this way, with none of the guilt. I have always felt more obedient to God when I've been pursuing healthy exercise, namely running, and I've been doing that too. So I've been trying to be obedient is all it really boils down to.
|October 2012- Holding apples representing the weight loss so far|
|Thanksgiving weekend- Hubby has this photo on his iPhone's lock screen|
|Kinda looks like a happy mug shot! (last week)|
CC hit a major milestone of his own this week, and I'm so proud of him for doing this with me. It's brought us closer and that's always a good thing. One thing that makes me super happy is that we don't just hang out all the time on the couch in front of the TV anymore. We still relax that way often, but it's not all we do. We go for walks, we go OUT. We just get out of the house. I love that!
I had more to share and of course, I can't think of it now. I hate when that happens. But if you have questions or want to talk about this more, feel free to let me know (Make sure I have your email or a way to contact you! Those noreply-blogger emails in the comments section bug the snot out of me because I can't respond to you.). I'm sure you'll be hearing from me more just because it's a natural part of my daily life now, but at least you've been updated!