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Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Surreal.

Last night I got an email with some pretty sobering news.

My mother, who I do not have the best relationship with, has a mass that may or may not be cancerous. She finds out on Monday after a biopsy exactly what she's dealing with. This totally shocked me and I think I've been walking around, dazed, since I found out.

Now before we go further I have to tell you that it sounds like it was caught in time, and it sounds like with some agressive treatment, she'll be fine- if that's confirmed on Monday.

I of course wish to ask you to join me in praying for her, that this would not be a cancerous mass and just a scare. However, I also ask that you pray for my family, that this would be the catalyst to draw our family closer together. Wisdom for CC and me would be especially appreciated, as we're trying to navigate a complicated relationship and still trying to provide support.

In the meantime while I've been praying and trying to pray, I have no word for this other than 'surreal.' This situation is so surreal to me. We do not have a history of this particular type of cancer in our family (or at least this side) so this has often been the one type of cancer I 'didn't have to worry about' if you know what I mean. To find out that I might have to- that we all might have to- is disheartening to be sure. We've all focused so much on preventing and staying on top of colon cancer, since we do have a family history of that. To be hit with another possible cancer is just so bizarre to me. I mean, obviously, you never know, etc. but I just feel weird.

Why is it when you're a child you're in such a hurry to grow up, but once you are grown and have these big adult moments, all you wish you could do is be a little child again and color? I mean, come on, who couldn't go for a coloring book and some Crayolas about now?

Sigh... I AM excited for this weekend. Just to completely change subjects on you.

I'm sure I've mentioned this since we're so excited, but this weekend we're going to run the Electric Run in Ohio with our very good friends who we adore. An entire weekend with just the four of us and no (hopefully) responsibilities-- we could get into a lot of trouble! Haha! I can't wait!!!

3 comments:

LauraC said...

Susan, I am so sorry. I do not have the greatest relationship with my dad, so I understand the conflicted feelings. It just so hard. I will be thinking about both you and your mom, really your entire family.

Enjoy your trip and let's chat about a time to meet in person when you get back!

Jan said...

Praying for you and that God gives you peace during this time of uncertainty. Please keep us posted. Thanks for letting us know how to pray.

{cuppakim} said...

I am and have been praying for her, and for all the circumstances surrounding. Bug hugs, Susan!